Noise

Noise

Life is a noisy place.  It often feels imposible to escape the noise of life. The traffic, the talking, the hum of electronic devices, cell phone rings, music blaring,  Aside from the noise pollution, there’s even light pollution   So many places there is so...
Breathless

Breathless

Sometimes, despite my best intentions, strongest convictions, all my strength and will, all my hope and faith, commitment and passion… sometimes despite everything I am, was, and will ever be… sometimes things fall apart. Sometimes it seems like...
Tears of Today

Tears of Today

Driving home from the neurologist’s this afternoon, I was overwhelmed by how much I’ve endured this past year and how much I’ve overcome.  No words that I could speak nor tears that I could shed could express the depth of my sorrow at that moment or...
Change of Heart

Change of Heart

I’ve been told on several occasions lately that I’m glowing.  I was in the LDS Temple when I heard it first.  One of the more locally important leaders came up to me to tell me that his counselor told him that I was glowing and that he agrees with him.  I...
Planning For Happiness

Planning For Happiness

This year my greatest birthday wish came months before my birthday.  It was to be out of the hospital to celebrate my special day.  This week, on Tuesday, is my birthday.  I will be turning 29 and entering the last year of my twenties.  After 11 long, hard, and often...
Silent Gratitude

Silent Gratitude

Gratitude. As strange as it might seem, that is the one prevailing emotion of the past six weeks. Why gratitude?  I’ve been in the hospital.  I’ve been sick.  Really sick. Several weeks on life support when I was too weak to breathe on my own.  So though...
Fading Scars

Fading Scars

Conventional wisdom tells us that scars fade over time.  But they don’t always fade on their own.  Whether physical or emotional, diminishing scars is a process that takes work. A few months ago I had surgery to have a two benign Lipoma tumors removed from my...
A Landmark Haircut

A Landmark Haircut

This week I cut off half my hair.   There was a lot of dry damaged hair, and I decided the best thing to do would be to hack it off.  I’ve gotten mixed reactions.  Mostly people seem to like it. My mom isn’t too keen on it.  It reminds me that people...
Perfect Apology

Perfect Apology

Historically, apologizing has not come easily to me.  I used to be very concerned with being right.  More than that, I was completely wrapped up and entangled in the dangerous web of perfectionism.  I really thought that if I failed to be right all the time and...