Christ Forgiving Woman in Red

Forgiven

What do we do when our understanding of our circumstances eludes us and puts our faith in peril?  How can we turn our doubt into a tool to grow closer to our Heavenly Father and our Savior Jesus Christ?  I recently discovered that it is from our most vulnerable place of complete doubt and uncertainty, that upmost faith and surety is the Gospel is available.

I received a blessing for a medical procedure that promised that i would be blessed that it would all go without complication.  When that didn’t turn out to be the case, I couldn’t be help but question my own faith.  Maybe I just didn’t have enough faith to receive that blessing.  Not only was I suffering the physical effects of my unfortunate circumstances but I was filled with fear.  Doubts swirled through my head.  Maybe I couldn’t trust myself to have the faith required to receive the blessings I most desperately want and need.  Maybe I let my own fear get in the way.  Or maybe God didn’t want me to have that blessing for some reason.

The Great Physician

The Great Physician

I sought out comfort in prayer from my Heavenly Father asking why I had to be stuck in the hospital once again for a prolonged period when it was supposed to be a one day procedure.  Though I didn’t get my answer right away I was comforted through the power of the Holy Spirit telling me that The Lord works in His own time and for His own reasons.  There was a reason for even this even if it was not yet clear to me.

It didn’t start to become clear until about a week later.  Still in the hospital another complication caused me an incident of severe and dangerous bleeding, that landed me back in the ICU.  It was then that I realized that if I had been stuck in the hospital in the first place then, I wouldn’t have been in the safety of the hospital when I had started bleeding profusely and the outcome might have been much worse.

Sitting in the Love of The Lord

Sitting in the Love of The Lord

It is much the same spiritually.  When we are in the safety of the Gospel in the loving arms of our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, we can bleed out all the doubt and woes of our life until we are weak and can barely stand.  Then Christ will be right there to support us.  He has already bled the same blood and so much more for us.  He has felt all the pain.  He is the Great Physician who will cure us and make us whole and complete again, so that we may return again.  Once we’ve hemorrhaged out all our doubts, we are ready to be so much more like Heavenly Father and our Savior Jesus Christ.  Even blessings that seem to fall short in our lives are opportunities to grow in the Gospel is we but turn to Christ, take His hand, and open our hearts, continually seeking the Father, repenting of all our doubts and sins, and seeking the divine healing of The Lord!

About Lauren

Lauren believes that life can be full of joy and gratitude especially in the face of life's toughest trials. A highly creative person, the 32-year-old has a background in web & graphic design, musical theater, competitive improvisation, film production, and Alternate Reality Games. She is passionate about creative writing and is working on the final drafts of two science fiction novels. As a graduate of Landmark Education she has developed herself personally and professionally allowing her to powerfully create the life that she wants. After being diagnosed with multiple autoimmune diseases including Myasthenia Gravis and Sjogren's Syndrome, she adapted to new limitations while also discovering new interests and creative outlets that have given her life renewed purpose. Although she was raised Jewish, she converted to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Her faith helped her to endure and even flourish.