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I’ve been told on several occasions lately that I’m glowing.  I was in the LDS Temple when I heard it first.  One of the more locally important leaders came up to me to tell me that his counselor told him that I was glowing and that he agrees with him.  I promptly turned a bright shade of red which I’m sure covered up any glow as I thanked him.  But when I got home, I looked in the mirror and to my surprise, sure enough, I was glowing.  Nothing green or yellow or radioactive, but my eyes and skin were lit up and shining.    Glowing is a term usually reserved for describing women who are in love or pregnant.  As I fall in neither category, it’s led me to wonder at the source of my illuminating shine.

Today I realized what that source was.  I was at church this morning when that same counselor came up to me directly to tell me how much he thought I was glowing for himself.  He also mentioned that could see a change in me.  That’s what gave me the clue.  I believe he was referring to a “change of heart” or a “mighty change” of heart of the variety written about beginning in The Book of Mormon, Alma, Chapter 5, Verse 12-14 & 26 :

12 And according to his faith there was a mighty change wrought in his heart. Behold I say unto you that this is all true.

13 And behold, he preached the word unto your fathers, and a mighty change was also wrought in their hearts, and they humbled themselves and put their trust in the true and living God. And behold, they were faithful until the end; therefore they were saved.

14 And now behold, I ask of you, my brethren of the church, have ye spiritually been born of God? Have ye received his image in your countenances? Have ye experienced this mighty change in your hearts?

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26 And now behold, I say unto you, my brethren, if ye have experienced a change of heart, and if ye have felt to sing the song of redeeming love, I would ask, can ye feel so now?

While I was in the hospital for three months over this past summer, I really believe it wrought a mighty change in my heart.  I learned to trust God like I never trusted before.  Being on a ventilator, unable to breath on my own, while still being completely conscious, for such a long period during that time, was a humbling experience.  It taught me to just keep giving me burdens over to my Savior.  It also taught me how our short lives are such a gift to treasure every moment of.

Writerfly glows with the Light of Christ after a mighty change of heart.

When I got home, I began to recover in leaps and bounds, faster than I had ever recovered and from a way more intense hospitalization than ever before.  I didn’t think much of it at first, but now I attribute it to the might change of heart I’m experienced.  The peace, faith and connectedness I feel are all products of that change of heart that I experienced inside me.  I felt the song of redeeming love so strongly then.  Can I feel so now?  I must answer a resounding, “yes!”

Which bring me back to the glow.  I realize now that I’m not really glowing.  Or rather when you look at me and see a glow, it’s not me that you are seeing.  You are seeing the Light of Christ working through me.  I have embraced Christ’s love and his love shines through me.  His love makes me glow.  So in a sense I am pregnant.  I carry faith inside me and feed it and nurture it and grow it into its full divine potential.  And I might not be romantically in love, but I strive to carry charity or “the pure love of Christ” with me everywhere I go.  That is the glow you see.  That is the light in my eyes.  As it is written in The New Testament, Matthew, Chapter 5, Verse 16:

 16 Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.

About Lauren

Lauren believes that life can be full of joy and gratitude especially in the face of life's toughest trials. A highly creative person, the 32-year-old has a background in web & graphic design, musical theater, competitive improvisation, film production, and Alternate Reality Games. She is passionate about creative writing and is working on the final drafts of two science fiction novels. As a graduate of Landmark Education she has developed herself personally and professionally allowing her to powerfully create the life that she wants. After being diagnosed with multiple autoimmune diseases including Myasthenia Gravis and Sjogren's Syndrome, she adapted to new limitations while also discovering new interests and creative outlets that have given her life renewed purpose. Although she was raised Jewish, she converted to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Her faith helped her to endure and even flourish.